I like strong statements and the way they disrupt my mind constructions… Like this one: ‘Whatever is limited is not real’. It sounds simple, logical, too obvious almost, as everything that has limitations is an object in awareness and not awareness itself.
My mind fooled itself again
Nothing new about the above and still… the past few weeks I had the notion that I was the point of focus OF awareness which was a mysterious ‘impersonal identity’, that moved around alongside the body or in the body and consequently was locatable and limited. It was nothing but just another construction of my mind trying to capture the mystery and turn it into something more or less concrete and understandable. Funny how my mind fooled itself again!
A residue of searching?
This point of focus was just another spiritual identity. Maybe a result of a residue of searching? Yesterday I went looking for a habit or addiction to search during an inquiry session that was part of a deepening course of the Living Inquiries with Fiona and Julianne. It soon turned out I didn’t really identify with such an addiction, but there seems to be an addiction to willing to understand and explain things to myself. And this addictions seems to be fed by a lack of self-confidence.
Another me fell away
Isn’t that wonderful? I look for one thing and at a very psychological level I find something totally different that appears to be me! And then at a much more unconcrete level all of a sudden this ‘Me being the point of focus of awareness’ falls down and I am left with even more nothing then before.
For almost a year now I have come up with more and less subtle spiritual identities, or should I say make-beliefs? Can my limited mind now please stop creating new limitations to this mystery? I like this unconstructed unlimited nothingness that includes everything 😉
