Is it possible to write a non-duality blog? Guess not. Apart from the fact that every exchange of words takes place in and is duality, a blog is even further away from the truth than an essay or some other non-fictional writing. There might be essays in here, but this is also (at least partial) a personal blog.
The wonder of nonduality is that I am the subject at the root of this reality. This subject (awareness) is not seperate from the daily reality nor from the seeing of that reality. If I could take awareness away, both the seeing and the daily reality would cease to exist as well. That daily reality, or life, just happens without a doer. Yet, ist is experienced different here than it is by you. Or so it seems. And that’s what I call personal.Personal also means it is about seeing where energy is still stuck. Feeling where the dual daily reality doesn’t seem to equal free awareness, love, consciousness, nonduality. That’s how this life is lived, at least for now. When I go gardening my hands get dirty, as I am the garden, the gardener, the gardening, the experience of gardening and the knowing of that experience. There are no clean hands in gardening. Life (or non-duality) is not sterile, it is fragile at it’s best.
We all are dirty handed gods. Whenever any arrogance slips in, whenever I deny a feeling, it won’t last lang and boomerangs right back into the face of the escape artist that beliefs he is something. Nonduality is not an escaping trip from life, it is more like a full inclusive. This blog is about being that full inclusive and the experience of it.
And here’s where the paradox of the unfindable me comes in. Yes, I, me, the escape artist is unfindable when looked for, or when awarely experienced and looked for he simply dissolves. And still there is a sudden focus, a center, unanchored somewhere in awareness that I call me and that is aware of the beautifull paradoxes it experiences and tries to describe. That’s what I will blog about, all these beautiful paradoxes… And the most basic one is that I am the one that sees that there is no-one here to blog about.
I hope you enjoy reading it.